Wind and Worth // Aleena F.Khalid
For a moment, please, pause what you are doing, go outside, and look at the sky, and contemplate, how amazing, astounding, astonishing, stunning, staggering, startling, stupefying, shattering, bewildering and breathtaking life really is.
One believes the above fact to only be true on some days, while other days it is just a mere rumor travelling along the wind, but don’t you notice, the wind? It’s kind of phenomenal, don’t you think? Well, only on the days, you feel phenomenal. See, your perspective towards the universe and its miracles, and your perspectives towards yourself, your mind and your soul; it is sort of interrelated. Directly proportional, say if you must.
However, here’s the catch. Just because you don’t find the wind to be phenomenal, doesn’t mean it isn’t. The wind isn’t yours to define. It defines itself, through its essence. Similarly, just because you don’t find yourself particularly phenomenal, doesn’t mean you aren’t. Your worth isn’t your feelings’ to define. Your worth defines itself, through its kindness and the generosity of your actions.
See, the universe is a spectacularly mind-blowing place, believe it or not, but it will also most definitely leave you perplexed, on most of the days. However, that is only so you can reach your own unbelievable amaze balls of a life.
A very high percentage of people tend to relate self-worth with materialistic gains, or something as simple as getting good grades, or maybe even being productive enough. Most teenagers and adults tend to choose their worth by the level of grades they get, by the amount of money they earn, or maybe, some people will measure their worth by ‘hey, I write for a good magazine, I must be worth something, if not everything.’ Well, you see, you do not measure your worth through things that can disappear in the blink of an eye, do you then disappear, too?
The universe decided your worth the day you were born. The universe, that you call home, knew you that were worth at least something, if not everything, to let you be you, in this wondrous space you call home. The wind, can be regarded similarly, it is itself, in all its forms, in all its different appearances. Sometimes, it is powerful to relate your worth with the wind.
What one shouldn’t relate their worth with is The Happiness Mantra. What is The Happiness Mantra? It demands that you want happiness, right that moment, it doesn’t matter where it is coming from, and how long it will stay. It doesn’t matter how much it will harm you, and how much it will ruin you. You just want happiness right that second. When you relate your worth, to the amount of happiness you are getting, to the amount of happiness you can produce in this world, you lose. You tend to quit, and you fail the universe. The judgment of your worth by your feelings, particularly happiness, converts The Happiness Mantra, into The Quitting Mantra, and now the feeling transforms into one feeling like a failure.
Now, the root of the problem here is that you wanted just happiness, any kind, any type, anytime, anywhere. What really should measure your worth, instead is the amount of meaning you bring to this world.
The thing is, you don’t really want happiness, you want meaning. You crave meaning; that meaning can be found in you snorting off with your friends who you might not see for a long time as you are moving away, you sitting beside your sick mother or father, taking care of them, you making sure the lost kid safely found his or her parents, even though you are getting late for the office, and you might get fired. These all aren’t particularly happy moments, but they are full of meaning. These are what make your life worthwhile, not those temporary moments of quick meaningless happiness. Meaning is what makes you worth.
Bringing meaning into your homes, into your lives, into the universe, makes you worth everything, and you know? The wind chooses to see everything, anyway.
So, if some days, you cannot find it in yourself to explore your worth and your meanings; for a moment, look for the wind, please, pause what you are doing, go outside, and look at the sky, and contemplate, how amazing, astounding, astonishing, stunning, staggering, startling, stupefying, shattering, bewildering and breathtaking life really is. As are you.